What a story......

I am involved with a ministry called Teen MOPS(Mothers of Preschoolers) and this has really changed my life. I have a heart for these girls because one of my good friends got pregnant when we were seniors in high school and I saw first hand how hard it was for her. I would have never thought that 11 years later I would be help leading a group of girls that are all in the same boat as she was and they all have similar stories.

With that being said, there is this one particular girl in the TMOPS group who has been placed on my heart. I will call her Jenn. Jenn was one of the first girls to join the group and I really liked her from the start. She has a 2 year old little girl who is so cute and a mess, I mean mess!!! Anyhow, Jenn is really strong & has a good head on her shoulders to be as young as she is, 17. This girl got pregnant at the young age of 14 and that is not even the beginning of her story. Jenn is one of 4 kids, 2 of which died by the age of 5 years old from a rare disease that is literally like 1 in a trillion chance of having yet both of her brothers had it and past away from this mysterious disease. As if this weren't enough her father committed suicide after the deaths of her brothers. I can only imagine how this now 17 year old girl has lived. She has taught many me things in the 8 months that I have known her. She is an amazing young woman who knows how to keep it to together and be one heck a mom to her little girl, which is something that she has not had since her 2nd brother died. Jenn's mom tapped out and has really been inactive in her life as well as her other sisters life, who is 7 years old. It is ashame that these things happen but I know in my heart that my God is working in and around Jen's life. Jenn even says that getting pregnant at such an early age was indeed absurd but if it weren't for her little girl she would most likely not be alive due to her ways of living at that time. There again that proves to me that God really works in mysterious ways & on His terms.

Jenn is now facing another pregnancy which she views much differently than the first. She also has much more on her plate that I time to explain. Jenn can not talk to her mom about what's going on in her life so her only people to talk to are us at TMOPS, her peers, & a few other individuals she has met along her journey.

This is where I come into the picture... I am trying my hardest to help this girl in any & all ways possible. I am begging God to show me where I am in this situation and what is His will for me. I want to be able to be used by God in whatever way He desires. I feel that God has lead me to Jenn for this reason. I think about her a lot, more so than any of the other girls yet I do not know exactly what to do, there is a silence. I feel that this silence is from God and I am patiently waiting for my next move. I pray for the words and actions to move forward in our relationship and my hope is that whatever God has laid out for me it comes soon and I can be of more assistance and help to Jenn. For the time being I will continue to pursue God's will in this situation as well as all others in my life. I will also continue to pray for guidance and direction for Jenn as she doesn't even know what to pray for ( I know this for a fact from a conversation we recently had) and I want to ask that you, the little audience of this blog, keep this girl in your prayers. The only thing that has come to my mind for her and I told her this was to pray for direction and guidance. This is a start and to me is a good one....